you gotta stand for something

it was once upon a time.

didn't manage to study today. damnit. really need to study man, exam in a week's time, and there's so much to study. goodness gracious me.

got stopped by people trying to evangelise today. i mean, i've nothing against them. it's just that right now i'm feeling really cynical about church. and their patience and willingness and, just well, them being so earnest is enough to kill me. seriously. i think i've hardened my heart, made it cold. if i die today, would i go to heaven, or would i go to hell?

belief is a beautiful armor
but makes for the heaviest sword
like punching underwater
you never can hit who you're trying for
some lead the exhibition
and some have to know they tried
it's the chemical weapon
for the war that's raging on inside
oh, everyone believes
from emptiness to everything
oh, everyone believes
and no one's going quietly


so monday night was awkward. it's a friendship lost. something that i'll never know how to handle. a vicious cycle that i am now sure will repeat itself. and the only one getting hurt would not be me, making me cold, heartless and selfish.

right right right. something wrong with me. my appetite's been weird. wheeeeeeeee.

need. veet. HAHA.

right, okay sleepy. shall go sleep, and resolve to wake up at 9 tomorrow to STUDY. need must have to no excuse. MALAS. i must not be.