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I'M BACK!

so basically, all i did in taiwan was eat, shop, eat, shop, eat, sleep. hello fatness. hahahaha. i swear i put on so much weight! it's damn depressing, my love handles are freaking gigantanormous. but it was a good trip i suppose. haha. really bought damn a lot of things, food and clothes/shoes. haha. good good good. I LOVE QI FAN ZOMGTTM. okay, enough.

haha, so anyway, baracuda photoshoot tomorrow! i hope i get to meet ger they all for dinner! it'd be awesome. i miss them so much! i haven't seen them in a gazillion years! i could just die.

and for ballet, i'm not only doing this spanish dance, but now i have to wear this chinese costume and dance to this 85-year-old woman singing a chinese love song. haha. it's quite sweet really. but omg i never knew that the dance would be so tiring. damn. I NEED TO IMPROVE ON MY POINTE WORK! and lose weight. damn.

honestly, why do i feel that the relationship is non existent? you say you miss me, but i don't receive a single call, not even a text from you. and why? cos you were sleeping and playing your PSP. you said you'd call, so i wait the whole day but nothing, only to find out you were doing nothing the whole day. what does this show? nevermind, forget about it. cos i don't even think i have time. just go happily play your dota/PSP whatever shit. if you don't call me, i won't call you. i'm tired of it.

i miss my tamborim! i haven't seen it in NINE days!!! i can't wait to see it tomorrow, even if we're not practicing, at least i get to see it! wooohoooo. i need to jam, now!!!!

and i've started work! hahahaha. hilarious, quite.

i'm hungry, again. damnit.

kay, should sleep soon. don't want to look bad for the photoshoot tomorrow! HAHA.

TAIWAN

BYE WORLD. SEE YOU SOON.

i'm gonna miss so many people :(

LILA DRUMS!

OUR SONG'S DONE! i like it :)

watched lila drums! they're damn good, I REALLY REALLY REEEAAALLLYYYYY ENJOYED THE SHOW, heh. inspiring man. i must master my virado ASAP! jiv's done it already. damn. ahhhh! i must improve at a faster pace! not good. ahhh! and i'm going taiwan. DAMNIT.

anyway, so many things have happened, i don't know what to say, or sometimes what to do. sigh. need to think through a lot of things so carefully.

ahhhhh. kay, i shall blog one last time on saturday before i go taiwan.

TANIA'S COMING OVER TOMORROW! YAY!

and thanks faz, aylwin. and well, cheryl, larris and joanne. LOVE.

so kill me.

i have no mood. feel like doing so many things, but then i can't. i want to be free? need to be free? i don't know. i need to get over this phase. i don't even feel like laughing? how bad is that.

performance tomorrow. all i'm thinking about is our song. i feel like all my creative juices have been sucked dry. got absolutely no ideas for movements etc.

frustration is bad.

dadadadum.

song's completed! kinda, sorta. finally. it's so much better when there's less people, more work gets done. i finally truly understand that.

i think girls are so petty and whiny. there's something seriously wrong with us. gahhhh, i'm too lazy to go into this.

I'M HUNRGY,

conferencing with faz and aylwin now. SEE YA.

uh huh.

sooo, today we went to school to make our song. it was.. pretty okay. managed to get the basic structure and all done. yay. it's definitely much much MUCH better than the first. so many people left early. at the end of the day, it was larris, aylwin, jiv, faz and i. haha. it's damn nice to just sit there and talk with them. ahhhh. just need cheryl. HAHAHAHAHA. and the conversation will change. totally. man, i need more of these kinda days. away from.. shhhh.

so yeah. i've been tired, like mentally tired. it kinda sucks. haven't been able to sleep past 930 this whole holiday. DAMNIT.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. i'm hungry.

good night world.

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BLEAGH.

don't know what to feel. stabs self.

nauseous

gahhhh. mommy just sorta scolded me for going out everyday. not my fault i have baracuda right. and must take this chance to meet everyone while their having school holidays right! sigh.

damnit, i feel sick. argh.

i think i've eaten too much fast food in the past few days. I NEED TO EAT HEALTHIER. can see my disgusting belly already :(

omg, tired man. bought samba pants today, or is it capoeira pants. anyhoo. quite cool ah. i don't get the logic behind skinnies for a batucada band. so what if we're girls. weird man. ahhhh.

i'm so damn tired. don't know why.

i need more freedom man.

i'm crapping. and my brain cells are dead.

sometimes, i wish i never met you, cos you want more than what i can give. i only treat you as a normal friend. stop with all the special friend shit. i don't even need to talk to my best friend everyday man. the only person i need to talk to everyday is cynric. gah. yes you help me, but i really don't need all this emotional shit from you. i'm tired of it. you keep on saying i take you for granted, you get pissed at me so easily, for not replying your sms, for not telling you stuff, for replying late. it gets annoying after awhile. it's like, i have no more energy left. you are in no way a special friend, you are an ordinary friend, one whom i'm closer to, but i don't freaking need to talk to you everyday. and i have cynric, stop trying to make me unhappy about that subconsciously. i'm really tired of it. i wish it would stop. and we'd just be normal friends. yeah,, our lives don't intercross or whatever shit, but does tania's and mine intercross? no right? but i still manage to talk to her perfectly fine when i meet her or talk to her on the phone? live with it.

kay, tired. argh. i need more time man.

and now there's baracuda on tuesday, DAMNIT DAMNIT DAMNIT. cynric's gonna be so unhappy about this. DAMNIT DAMNIT.

itchy itchy

let's seeeeeeeeee. everyday was pretty much baracuda memorise script cynric. apart from the cynric part, everything else was tiring. sigh. i'm not even taking the ducktour job anymore. GAHHHH. memorised so hard for nothing. cos i think i will die from exhaustion. oh wells. nevermind. we shall see how.

started on spanish dance rehearsal. it's.. interesting. i'm scared i forget and can't get the style and everything right. damnit. aiiiiyyyyeeee.

met cynric today, and yesterday! yay :)

i'm just updating for the sake of updating man. sigh.

well now, time for baracuda almost everyday. hope mommy doesn't blow up at me.

i don't know man.


kay, enough of my mundane life. good night everyone.