nauseous

gahhhh. mommy just sorta scolded me for going out everyday. not my fault i have baracuda right. and must take this chance to meet everyone while their having school holidays right! sigh.

damnit, i feel sick. argh.

i think i've eaten too much fast food in the past few days. I NEED TO EAT HEALTHIER. can see my disgusting belly already :(

omg, tired man. bought samba pants today, or is it capoeira pants. anyhoo. quite cool ah. i don't get the logic behind skinnies for a batucada band. so what if we're girls. weird man. ahhhh.

i'm so damn tired. don't know why.

i need more freedom man.

i'm crapping. and my brain cells are dead.

sometimes, i wish i never met you, cos you want more than what i can give. i only treat you as a normal friend. stop with all the special friend shit. i don't even need to talk to my best friend everyday man. the only person i need to talk to everyday is cynric. gah. yes you help me, but i really don't need all this emotional shit from you. i'm tired of it. you keep on saying i take you for granted, you get pissed at me so easily, for not replying your sms, for not telling you stuff, for replying late. it gets annoying after awhile. it's like, i have no more energy left. you are in no way a special friend, you are an ordinary friend, one whom i'm closer to, but i don't freaking need to talk to you everyday. and i have cynric, stop trying to make me unhappy about that subconsciously. i'm really tired of it. i wish it would stop. and we'd just be normal friends. yeah,, our lives don't intercross or whatever shit, but does tania's and mine intercross? no right? but i still manage to talk to her perfectly fine when i meet her or talk to her on the phone? live with it.

kay, tired. argh. i need more time man.

and now there's baracuda on tuesday, DAMNIT DAMNIT DAMNIT. cynric's gonna be so unhappy about this. DAMNIT DAMNIT.