ARGH.

OKAY, I AM STRESSING.

I NEED TO RANT, VENT WHATEVER.

okay, whatever man.

so, my battery's jammed into my computer. ARGH. CDEV is KILLING me. ballet just now wasn't fulfilling at all. i thought it would make me feel better. only 1 1/2 hours of ballet this week, when i normally get 4. how bad is that man. doesn't help that i can't get rid of this stupid cold. so much phelgm and mucus. STAB. and i'm just plain tired la. my eyebags are getting worse and worse. and i've put on weight i feel heavy. coiuld feel it during ballet just now. DEATH.

my butt hurts from sitting on this hard hard floor. omg. i want to be done like, now, so i can retire to my oh so inviting bed just behind me. sigh.

oh just remembered, STUPID IT TOMORROW. WAIT 3 LONG HOURS FOR WHAT? IT. AS IF I HAVE TO TEACH MY CHILDREN HOW TO USE FREAKING MICROSOFT EXCEL AND ACCESS. pshaw.

i can't be bothered anymore, omg. this is so damn tiring.

OMG SHA AND JANEY, WE SHALL BE ULTRA STRONG WOMEN AND GET THROUGH ALL THESE TIRESOME ASSIGNMENTS. hahaha. we shall laugh and cheer ourselves up and be merry. HAHA :) i'm glad to have you two babes! :)

stress

TIRED MAN.

just finished FP assignment. i am one tired shit. it feels like a lousy piece of work :( no more 4.0 gpa. HA. just hope for the best. oh wells.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ADRIENNE! i miss you loads :(

PERFORMANCE TOMORROW. OOOOH, I CAN'T WAIT :)

CHROMIUM COMING OVER TOMORROW. ALL THE MORE I CAN'T WAIT! I MISS THEM LOADS LOADS LOADS.

okay, flu still here, i sound like a man, awesomeness.

GOODNIGHT, sweet dreams(not) of my FP assignment. DAMN.

paradox

i'm TIRED. extremely tired. argh. and was pissed at my mom just now. WHAT IS INSULT MY FRIENDS.

$#!%^&*@

got no more mood to do my assignments. NOT GOOD. all i feel like doing is going for baracuda till i go deaf and my hands are numb, and i only feel the beats.

i'm feeling weird about it, it's extremely not good at all. it's like i want, yet don't want, yet want. weird, no?

looks like i'm holding onto something that means nothing already. i guess it's one regret i'll have to live with. and it's the only regret that's deep within.

EXHAUSTED MAN. don't even know why.

i just want to be on holiday. SNIFF.

it's great being back in the company of janey and sha :) julian, hurry come back, please.

SORE THROAT IS KILLING ME. i sounded like a man the whole of today. only towards the end it got better. maybe cos i was so tired i didn't talk, saves my voice. haha.

only time will tell.

made of awesome

I'M BACK!

baracuda camp was absolutely fantabulously wonderfully fantastic :) i had so much fun! damn little sleep though. came back at 12 plus yesterday and totally skipped lunch and knocked out till dinner. haha. but it was sooooo much fun! wheeeeeeeeee. i miss camp now :( except for a certain thing, tsk. larris, aylwin, keith(i think) and joanne would know. omg. oh wells.

finished my powerpoint today and handed it in, phew. touched a little of my observation report and FP assignment. damn, i feel like i'm missing something. oh wells.

met cynric today. awesome. didn't see him for like 13847529856208651076 years. heh.

i'm still tired luh. had a one and a half hour nap after dinner just now. shit man, total and complete pig. aiyeeeeeeee.

OH OH OH, IMPORTANT FACT! I MANAGED TO PLAY THE SURDO DURING CAMP! WOOOOOHOOOOOOO! I MANAGED TO PLAY ALL THE SONGS EXCEPT ONE! YAYYYYYY!!! heh. played till my shins are all bruised up but it's okay! it's worth it :) teeeheeee. i love jamming, you get to play any instrument you want. AWESOME TTM :) :) :) :) :) :) :)

school starts tomorrow! sigh, don't really want it to start. felt like i didn't really have a 2 week break. everyday was so super busy. and all somehow linked to school. damn. oh wells.

OH OH. first performance on 3 july! scary shit! i can't wait and i'm super excited! but super scared too. AHHHH.

awesome. good night everyone, i need to catch up on my sleep. and dream about playing the surdo :)

here i come!

okay, baracuda camp tomorrow! i've been waiting for it. but now that it's just tomorrow. i don't know what i'm feeling. haha. i can't be bothered to bring sports shoes. or maybe tomorrow i'll miraculously feel not lazy and decide to bring them after all. haha. and i've a feeling i've forgotten something? as always.

anyway, did the observation record with janey and sha today. omg. sigh. so difficult and confusing. omg. ahhhhh. so many assignments! i swear we're all just gonna die.

anyway, enjoy the rest of your holidays people! i'll be making loads of noise, hopefully enjoying myself at camp :)

it's a women's thing.

i read this somewhere. funny funny.

1) Fine: This is the word women use to end an argument when they are right and you need to shut up.

(2) Five Minutes: If she is getting dressed, this means a half an hour. Five minutes is only five minutes if you have just been given five more minutes to watch the game before helping around the house.

(3) Nothing: This is the calm before the storm. This means something, and you should be on your toes. Arguments that begin with nothing usually end in fine.

(4) Go Ahead: This is a dare, not permission. Don't Do It!

(5) This is actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men. A loud sigh means she thinks you are an idiot and wonders why she is wastng er time standing here and arguing with you about nothing. (Refer back to # 3 for the meaning of nothing.)

(6) That's Okay: This is one of the most dangerous statements a woman can make to a man. That's okay means she wants to think long and hard before deciding how and when you will pay for your mistake.

(7) Thanks: A woman is thanking you, do not question, or Faint. Just say you're welcome. (I want to add in a clause here - This is true, unless she says 'Thanks a lot' - that is PURE sarcasm and she is not thanking you at all. DO NOT say 'you're welcome' ... that will bring on a 'whatever').

(8) Whatever: Is a women's way of saying ____ YOU!

(9) Don't worry about it, I got it: Another dangerous statement, meaning this is something that a woman has told a man to do several times, but is now doing it herself. This will later result in a man asking 'What's wrong?' For the woman's response refer to # 3.

okay, i'm tired, and i haven't finished my work. damn.

so long, farewell.

contradictory stories;

today was a pretty good day :) at least i'm feeling a teensy bit better. still haven't touched any work, but i'm planning to do everything tomorrow afternoon.

someone please motivate me to do my work tomorrow! i must get it done no matter what! by hook or by crook!

ballet yesterday was good :) i loved the music. made me feel so happy. i need more ballet. they should have ballet therapy. i'd sign up for it immediately!

anyway, i miss janey, sha and julian :(

hmmm, there are more exclaimation marks in this post. interesting.

anyway, thanks julian :)

okay, tired, read the notebook and sleep.

angsty.

i am annoyed to tears. don't even know if it's a valid reason. i have absolutely no mood to do my assignments. what is happening to me?

ballet tomorrow, i hope it can help me feel happier. i miss dancing. it is my only form of destressing. i'd just die without it. i miss the 3 times a week lessons. i want it, and i think i need it. i was much happier then. but then again, time? no time. not at all.

i need to stop posting angsty sad emo posts. haha. i must be happy happy.

i don't even have time to myself. what is this. tsk.

ARGH. OKAY, ASSIGNMENTS TIME.

wait, i got tagged by this. argh. here goes.

A) People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs & replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

B) Tag 5 people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse.These people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by.Continue this game by sending it to other people.

#1 If your lover betrayed you, what will your first reaction be?
cry my eyes out, and be an emo nemo.
#2 If you can have a dream come true, what would it be?
to be a professional dancer, or have some hidden talent for drums/guitar/piano and be a professional musician.
#3 What will your dream wedding be like?
not a big wedding, with close friends and family. but still elegant and sophisticated, and suits whatever fantasy i have at the age i'm married.
#4 Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?
erm, pretty much gonna be in the childcare industry.
#5 What's your ideal lover like?
funny, kind, able to understand me, us being able to click haha, able to share thoughts and feelings with me, and more? but i'm lazy to write down.
#6 Which would you rather, loving someone or being loved by someone?
being loved.
#7 How long do you intend to wait for someone u really love?
i don't know.
#8 If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
i'd be sad and just tell myself to give up, cos there's no chance.
#9 Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
yeah.
#10 Are you in love or being loved now?
BOTH!
#11 How do you see yourself in ten years time?
how the hell should i know. if i knew, wouldn't life be so much simpler?
#12 Who are currently the most important people to you?
my family and friends and cynric.
#13 What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
he is the bestest of all.
#14 Would you rather be single & rich or married but poor?
married but poor
#15 What's the first thing you do every morning?
er, wake up.
#16 Would you give your all in a relationship?
absolutely.
#17 If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
i wouldn't know.
#18 Would you fall for a friend?
depends.
#19 What type of friends do you like?
funny, loyal, able to understand me, can talk about anything and everything under the sun. and honestly, it's hard to choose friends that are only of a certain type. boring isn't it.
#20 What type of friends do you dislike?
er, then they wouldn't be called friends.

people i tag:
JANEY
SHA
JULIAN
AYLWIN
JOYCE

The Rose

Some say love it is a river
That drowns the tender reed.
Some say love it is a razor
That leaves your soul to bleed.

Some say love it is a hunger
An endless, aching need
I say love it is a flower,
And you it's only seed.

It's the heart afraid of breaking
That never learns to dance
It's the dream afraid of waking
That never takes the chance

It's the one who won't be taken,
Who cannot seem to give
And the soul afraid of dying
That never learns to live.

And the night has been too lonely
And the road has been too long.
And you think that love is only
For the lucky and the strong.

Just remember in the winter
Far beneath the bitter snow
Lies the seed that with the sun's love,
In the spring, becomes a rose.

woo.

had baracuda today. awesomeness. learnt a new song! good great best!

MET GER AND THE REST TODAY. it was great. short time but still great.

i'm tired, again. still sick.

childcare centre tomorrow, again. goodness gracious me.

once again, forgot what i wanted to blog about. poots.

i'm so tired of waiting. just don't care, would you.

la bonne nuit, dorment des rêves serrés et doux, j'espèrent.

so sing for me.

i was feeling so lousy just now, and with no one to talk to. not like i'm feeling any better, just a little. but oh wells. whatever. it is never good to cry on public transport.

so, once again, so much to do, so little time. i'm about to kill myself. i haven't even touched my IT stuff yet. and i think julian's at camp. SHIT LUH. ARGH. i wish everything would just magically complete by itself with the information and process and whatever necessary stored in my brain. there, now wouldn't life be simpler? as if.

been going back to the childcare centre. i'm tired. been waking up at around 7 plus every morning? there goes my lie ins. and i'm sick. stupid blocked nose and cough. argh.

i was so determined to start on my IT assignment just now after attachment cos my friend cancelled on me, but i came home and felt like total and utter shit, and coudn't bring myself to do the assignment. so i shall start after i blog. great.

i can't even breathe through my nose! it's highly annoying.

baracuda tomorrow. a few people have been telling my baracuda takes up a lot of my time. well, i guess that's just it huh. i choose it, i live it.

no time, at all.

relief

OMG, FINALLY CAN RELAX THIS WEEKEND. but after this weekend i must get back to work straight away! oh man. at least i'm done with the assignments for term one and the two tests. omg, it was seriously killer. my head's pounding now! i think cos i haven't been getting enough sleep, and not enough water. OH NO! what if i'm falling sick! that would be bad. i have to go back to the childcare centre everyday of next week. DEATH.

oh oh it was so funny just now! after janey and i got out of my dad's car, we didn't know the rain was gonna blow at us and we just stood there in shock screaming. HAHAH! it was so funny omg! and yesterday when we handed in our assignments we were like, omg omg omg omg omg so stressed! hahaha we felt so bleagh. if i were alone i swear i wouldn't have known how to handle it. haha luckily janey was there with me :) haha.

so, shopped with mommy today after PPCM test. it was fruitful :) but i wanna get more stuff! all the things i bought today were like 20-40 % off! yay! heh. happy happy. but i need more blouses! oh wells.

oh man, the last few weeks of the term were really so tiring, it's starting to show it's effects. what with pimple outbreaks, eyebags and bad health. oh me oh my. bad bad.

hopefully everyone can rest well this weekend and we'd be all ready to do our next few projects.

HA, fat chance. good two weeks break my foot.

le meilleur

Bonjour monde.

je suis fatigué. nous sommes finalement parvenus à le soumettre notre tâche ! c'est la chose la plus irritante à faire, jamais ! mais je suis heureux nous l'avons obtenu fait. je le déteste :(

j'ai dormi à trois ce matin. droite en retard ! j'étais si fatigué pendant l'école en ce moment. a voulu mourir.

blogging en français est amusement. voyons qui peut figurer ceci dehors. si vous pouvez, laisser un ok de commentaire ! :)

parler finalement commencé au shamus encore. son bon pour savoir qu'après que tant d'années nous puissions encore parler, et toujours demeurons sorte de bons amis. cela me manque de vraiment lui parler, beaucoup.

il y a ballet demain ! je suis heureux. je ne peux pas attendre pour commencer à danser encore. bien que j'aie mis dessus beaucoup de poids. je suis ainsi graisse maintenant, elle est très baissante. je dois perdre le poids maintenant ! je suis fatigué cependant, mais je pense que le ballet me rendra heureux. je souhaite seulement que ce soit semaine de pointe cependant.

ok, beaucoup de Français. mais je trouve des regards de ce poteau absolument frais ! je blog en français plus souvent. heehee.

je sais que je ne dois pas vous manquer, mais je fais. il est erroné, je savent cela. mais je ne peux pas l'aider. si seulement les circonstances étaient différentes. cependant, chaque fois que je commence à aimer quelque chose de plus en plus, il mourrait juste vers le bas. et quand je me force à abandonner, la chose rétablirait de façon ou d'autre encore. pourquoi?

monde de bonne nuit. il a été grand.

OMG.

I AM STRESSED. AND PANICKING. AND ANGSTY. AND GENERALLY IN A BAD MOOD. BUT MOSTLY STRESSED.

need to finish play assignment by TODAY so that i can send it to daddy so he can print for me at the office tomorrow. this is what you get when your computer at home FAILS/DIES. sigh.

anyway.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TAMMIE DEAREST :)
though you're in china, i hope you celebrated it well. we'll celebrate it with you when you get back. i can't wait to see you! lots of love :)

OKAY! ASSIGNMENTS TIME. DIE DIE DIE.

oh joy.

let's see. CDEV test yesterday. no point crying over spilt milk. i mean, not say it was HORRIBLY TERRIBLE. but bad enough. i didn't focus so much on language and the questions in section B were almost all on that. damn. there goes my 3.8 GPA. HA.

french test today. oral was, er okay? got paired with wen li. poor girl was so nervous she couldn't form her sentences properly. the written test was done in like ten minutes? haha. oh wells. i hope i at least pass. feel pretty okay about it though. heh.

there are so many assignments, i don't know what i'm supposed to do anymore. it's all so confusing. tsk. everyone's getting so stressed. and it sucks that i can't do anything to help them feel not as stressed. STRESS STRESS STRESS! pimple breakout :(

attachment today was pretty fun. akira took a liking to me. heh. cute kid. just found out that everyday for the whole of next week i'm going to be at the childcare centre from 9-1. NO SLEEPING IN :( oh wells. never mind. at least i like the kids. and i get to do more observations to help me. hard as it is, but necessary.

i was in such a mood to blog yesterday, but nooooo. blogger just refused to let me sign in and blog. i was like bursting, cos i needed to type out so much stuff. and it felt like a good day to write. and now it's all gone. sigh.

and i realise i can't write properly now. my handwriting is DISGUSTING. see luh, type so much until my handwriting's gone down the drain.

someone recently told me that i seem to have lost that certain spark i used to have, some sort of innocence, some sort of naivety perhaps? it's quite sad really. i don't laugh everyday anymore. i used to do that. maybe that's why. i can't seem to find the energy to laugh everyday, or the source. i need to laugh everyday. it's one of the greater joys in life. i love hearing laughter, it makes me smile. well duh, cos it's contagious. but the fact that people are happy, and can find something to laugh about makes me feel pretty good. maybe i need laughing gas. i remember never needing that, when my friends and i would just laugh and laugh like mad, for hours, for no apparent reason. i guess i'm just too exhausted to laugh. THAT'S BAADDD!!!

i still think, laughter is the best medicine.