oh joy.

let's see. CDEV test yesterday. no point crying over spilt milk. i mean, not say it was HORRIBLY TERRIBLE. but bad enough. i didn't focus so much on language and the questions in section B were almost all on that. damn. there goes my 3.8 GPA. HA.

french test today. oral was, er okay? got paired with wen li. poor girl was so nervous she couldn't form her sentences properly. the written test was done in like ten minutes? haha. oh wells. i hope i at least pass. feel pretty okay about it though. heh.

there are so many assignments, i don't know what i'm supposed to do anymore. it's all so confusing. tsk. everyone's getting so stressed. and it sucks that i can't do anything to help them feel not as stressed. STRESS STRESS STRESS! pimple breakout :(

attachment today was pretty fun. akira took a liking to me. heh. cute kid. just found out that everyday for the whole of next week i'm going to be at the childcare centre from 9-1. NO SLEEPING IN :( oh wells. never mind. at least i like the kids. and i get to do more observations to help me. hard as it is, but necessary.

i was in such a mood to blog yesterday, but nooooo. blogger just refused to let me sign in and blog. i was like bursting, cos i needed to type out so much stuff. and it felt like a good day to write. and now it's all gone. sigh.

and i realise i can't write properly now. my handwriting is DISGUSTING. see luh, type so much until my handwriting's gone down the drain.

someone recently told me that i seem to have lost that certain spark i used to have, some sort of innocence, some sort of naivety perhaps? it's quite sad really. i don't laugh everyday anymore. i used to do that. maybe that's why. i can't seem to find the energy to laugh everyday, or the source. i need to laugh everyday. it's one of the greater joys in life. i love hearing laughter, it makes me smile. well duh, cos it's contagious. but the fact that people are happy, and can find something to laugh about makes me feel pretty good. maybe i need laughing gas. i remember never needing that, when my friends and i would just laugh and laugh like mad, for hours, for no apparent reason. i guess i'm just too exhausted to laugh. THAT'S BAADDD!!!

i still think, laughter is the best medicine.