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i'm going crazy memorising my script man! this sucks ttm. i'm supposed to be presenting on wed, but cos of baracuda i now have to present on thursday. it kinda sucks. at least one more day? sorta? i'm not even halfway through! what is this man. the second part i memorised isn't even fluent. DEATH.

so, met my lovelies on sunday :) had an absolute great time. missed them like crazy man. and i love jun wen's new specs! pretttyyyy. heh. sigh, how i wish things would go back to last time.

it's as if there's this huge burden and weight on my shoulders, i don't know how to live with it. if i screw this up, i'm the only one that's gonna face the consequences. yes you may say that you'll be there for me, and i believe it, but you're not gonna be the one that's gonna direct everything at you. and yes, you may say it's from here that i see who my true friends are, but it's really hard you know. i don't know how to do it and i'm scared. i'm just really afraid. am i really the right person? is it really the right time to do it? what if they don't see it that way, and they see it from a totally different perspective? and even with good intentions, they're never gonna see it that way.

why is it that when i need you the most, you just brush off the matter, and i don't feel better telling you about it, and how stressed i am over it. maybe tania's right, a break might be good.

ARGH. JAAANNNNEEEEEYYYY, SHHHHHAAAAA. I MISS YOU A WHOLE LOT :(