such it is.

i've never felt so much for anything before.

it was so tough leaving the centre on friday. it was impossible to stop the tears. i've had an absolutely wonderful time. though i complain, yes. but still. i've learnt so much. i've added so many more beautiful memories.

it's just a sadness that i cannot put into words. i can't explain it to anyone. i don't expect anyone to understand. i don't know why, this is one of the rare things that i know no one will ever be able to understand.

i feel like i'm losing people. i fucking hate that feeling.

i need to dance, i need an outlet to express all my emotions. and yet i seem to not want to go. argh.

hurry phase, hurry up and end already. it's not making me feel good at all.

i hate having conversations in my head. fights about whether i should or should not. and wanting to pen it down, and when i open this page, all my conversations run away.

good job.

everything seems to be about me, myself and i. not good.

let go bernette, just let go already.