argh. so angry with myself. feel so demoralised.
ballet today was not as good as i expected. i think sometimes when i think too much and get too excited, reality hits, and the disappointment that i get is so argh. like i think i can do this, but in actual fact i can't. cos i don't dance everyday. and i don't get to train as much as i want. and my body isn't exactly what you call a dancer's body. there's like too much.
and how demoralising it is when people who are so much better than me tell me oh i can't do this i can't do that, oh i'm so fat, my legs are so big, my ass is huge. when actually they're pretty damn skinny already. seriously. if you've seen my ballet friends you know what i'm talking about. when actually they can do a perfect double pirouette on pointe, and can balance, and mm praises them, throughout the whole class.
work harder lor.
sigh.
1 comment:
hey bnette came across your blog via someone else's. don't be discouraged, and i know what you mean when you just feel different sometimes. but hey you are a dancer at heart, so are the rest! dancers come in all shapes and sizes so don't think too much and dance with your heart and prance, do that perfect double pirouette on pointe (i believe you can too) ooooh i would like to see you dance! :)
have a great thur!
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