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soooo. attachment on tuesday again. it was great. i love the kids. i was feeling really really really sleepy. but then i never ever fell asleep cos looking at the kids just makes me smile. and never stop smiling until i leave the centre. haha. found out so much more about the kids yesterday. so many things to take note of, so many things to observe. i'm afraid of observing the wrong thing and not being able to do well. i'm afraid of not knowing how to handle the kids. i've seen my inadequacies. makes you feel kinda like shit. but then when you look at the children, and they don't realise it, and they still come to you with so much love and affection, it equals out all the negative thoughts. children are the sweetest things on earth. and by children, for me, i mean 0-6 years old. haha.

i mean, yes, they do have their negative moments. when they cry and throw earthquake tantrums, it can get on your nerves. but then, the innocence and naivety that they possess, which makes them such angels softens your heart. and you can't help but dote on them and want to give them the best.

faith tried to sit on my lap yesterday. it obviously shouldn't happen in a centre cos then you show favouritism. but you know, it felt good knowing that she likes me and trusts me enough to want to sit on my lap. had to tell her nicely that she can't sit on my lap though :( and i saw her character, and how she's like. i wouldn't call her a bully, just that she's very strong-headed and likes to be in control. she wasn't a good girl yesterday, as what li lao shi said, and wasn't allowed to be the leader. then she got all sulky and stuff like that. there's a whole lot of difference. it's really amazing to see such a quick change. but even more amazing to see that after awhile, she forgets all about it. that's the beauty of a young kid's mind. they don't hold grudges.

now, why can't we be like that?

maybe life would have been simpler.

then again, maybe not.